It goes to show you never can tell.
It really does.
Two big breakthroughs in two weeks time. The backstories of both being slightly bigger and more confounding than white whales in rough seas with no names beneath boats in the deep and the sway is unceasing. Unceasing, I tell you.
Beneath boats, like white whales/ only ever/ surfacing briefly/ to keep me guessing/ and believing/ my aim may conquer/ my eye might meet its/ eye and best him.
Breakthrough as a word choice. Breakthrough as a storyline. Breakthrough as an epiphany may invite judgment. I think it’s the right word, in the right storyline, as an epiphany to help me move forward.
You’d think forward motion/inevitably moving/evidently truthful/elastic and stretching,/ would be unsurprising/with nothing to see here/but nothing to see here/is hiding glacial impediments to the traveller’s quest.
Basically, you have to cry and know you’re crying, you have to say things out loud to strangers who write it down and then allow for something hidden to be revealed before thawing the burger for tacos that night. Basically, you have to go through old emails and retrace your footsteps and see what you do as a pattern and then brown the burger and toss the vegetables in oil, sprinkle them will sea salt, hang your head and sigh. I can see a pattern I’ve been missing and it makes all the difference and now that i see it, I have to look it in its eye. I have to wrestle and tangle and go back for what I left there and take it home in whatever condition it may be by now.
Go home and sit thinking/light a lamp and start writing/leave the sea to its business/and live on dry land.
What’s rushing past you? What’s calling you forward? What kind of unraveling is on the menu today? What love had left buried/hoping one day to unearth it/now peaks brightly clearly/ through the dry leaves of fall.
And Korean dramas have everything you ever wanted in RomCom episodic TV and they only last one season and they are doing it very well. I’m dreaming of Dublin, playing shows, going to do house concerts, buying new shoes, the perfect donut, buying expensive skin products (you’re my only hope), Mexican Restaurants, searching for panthers, birds in the sky and leaves on the ground. Breakthrough seems right this time of year. Two in two weeks is work to be done truly, is work meant for a reason, will keep me busy for a while.