Day 2/23 Exhaustion vs. Motivation

Wins for today: Drank lots of water, moved my body, ate according to my plan, did some really good thought work and journalling, got my sons to field work pickup at 5:15am, walked to church, stayed for Adult Bible Study, made family lunch, made family dinner, started three songs which I fully intend to finish by deadline tomorrow, played my beautiful Gibson guitar outside, and got to Facetime with my son this afternoon to talk about his music camp.

All winning all the time.

Maybe. Here’s what’s not winning: allowing old diet thoughts to creep in and turn fun into a practice in deprivation. That’s not winning. That’s not fun.

What do I mean? Eating so many twigs and berries that I feel super virtuous (which is a thought I’m actually releasing and unlearning around food forever) and also, leaning toward the realm of witholding what I would prefer to eat and creating thoughts and feelings that aren’t motivating, is a sticky business. That sounds like endurance. Endurance is bullshit and the opposite of what we’re working toward over here. Instead of endurance, which makes me think of some kind of weird bug challenge when you win a year’s supply of Hubba Bubba or something stupid like that, I’d say we’re working toward commitment. More commitment to our truest desires and visions in a way that knows we are the non-renewable resource that needs to be taken care of while reaching a goal.

Which is why small wins like waking up two minutes before the alarm clock so I don’t have to hear its dastardly judging beep from hell is a win and worth celebrating. Small wins that have you seeing the good things everywhere, seeing where you made it easy on yourself, see where you didn’t take the cookie that you hadn’t planned on eating and had fun doing something more fun than cookies, is where the currency for future successful days comes from. This is not a slog. This is the anti-slog. This is the Anti-Slog Blog.

Celebrating wins in big and small ways is generally a great and easy way to shift your focus from what’s not working to what IS working. That helps you and your brain start thinking, “This is working.” That kind of thought sounds like commitment and cultivating commitment with ourselves is the biggest game changer of all no matter what you eat for breakfast. See you tomorrow!!