On the edge of the endless wondering why while the sprayer turns at the end of the field to go back the way he came spraying for weeds and it looks like rain, dirt roads and grey skies and just more of the same walking out to the tree then back home.
The busted dryer, the busted car, the basement without carpet, the boxes, the clutter, the walk through via zoom to choose bedrooms and make labels for the stuff and the stuff and the more stuff heading east. Things are broken, things get fixed, we cry tears, we laugh loudly, we walk to keep moving, we move to find lessons unlearned elsewhere supposing we can still change into someone we haven’t been just quite yet.
Thank God for summer, for friendship, for rain, for the safety of small towns and the road leading out. Thank God for mercy, forgiveness, renewed restoration and a heart that keep beating forward march, forward march.
I think about flowers and deck chairs and new chapters beginning, I think about God and his wisdom, about peace and good growth. I think about writers and singers and players in time. I think about marriage and oneness and covenant love. I think about hymns when the organ drops out and the voices rise together, I think about the readings for Sunday, my Dad back at home, my mom in contentment who can’t remember my name. I think about how I thought this would go and how it all came to be and I’m astounded at the bounty, the blessing and the blessed. I wonder on the edge of the endless like the stars and pre-stars and pre-pre-pre galaxy stars that satellite telescope took photographs of and sent back to us. “Brightest and best of the stars of the morning, dawn on our darkness and lend us thine aid; Star of the East, the horizon adorning, Guide where our infant redeemer is laid.”
On the edge of the endless, oh the endless, oh the when this careless precious, feckless sensient mess of breathless souls attend this planet sent us by the endless love of Christ divine, will we see it, will we be it, will we let our goodness shine to the endless edge of getting it lit to let burn and burn and burn big and bright.